Myra is ME

Thursday, November 23, 2006

S.O.S

I always thought that boredom is something you unconsciously welcome but I forgot that, sometimes, you just cant help feeling that way. Its 47mins before knock off and there is an uncomfortable jitter in my heart. I got loads on my mine... loads.. if only I had someone who can sincerely help me sort things out, without being asked. But I guess it takes a reaaaaallll good friend to know whats ticking in my mind. I think it will only take a physhic to do that. Hahah. Someone who has always been there since the old days, but hey. I doubt I know of such persons, and that is actually self-inflicted la. Not your fault, friends out there. I am the type who keeps things to myself. Whoever offers help upon hearing my predicament, will be remembered and cherished.
But sometimes, it just amazes me that I worry about small trivial issues. That, or just one BIG issue. Sometimes, I wonder whether I worry too much (which is very unhealthy). So in times like this, I tell myself (self-consoling), this silly issue will just be a figment of my past when I am forty. Money can find, as long as no criminal records. I need a lawyer. I wonder how much one costs.... Anyone knows a lawyer? A real one?

p.s. thnks shiks for loaning me ur phone, thnks Za for not consoling me when I told you whats bothering me :p

Myra Abd Kadir~ at 17:17

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Its All about me....

I did one of those quiz, for the heck of it and boy was it true.

List the animals, first being your favourite. Pig Sheep Cow Horse Tiger
Write the first word that comes to your mind when you read these words. Dog, Cat, Rat. Coffee, Sea
Who is the first person you think of when you think of these colours. Yellow, Orange, Red, White, Green

My answers are

Tiger, Horse, Cow, Sheep, Pig
Dog is filial, Cat is lovable, Rat is smart, Coffee is robust/ strong, Sea is calm
Yellow reminds me of Khairun, Orange reminds me of Sadiq, Red reminds me of Mum, White of Dad and Green of Arif

What these says bout me is

a) This question test how priortise things in my life.

Firstly, Tiger, I value pride

Horse, I value family

Cow, I value career

Sheep, I value love

Lastly, Pig, I value money

b) The qualities of the animals represent certain things bout you

Dog- I wrote filial which is how my personality is

Cat- I wrote lovable which is how my partner's personality is

Rat- I wrote smart which is what my enemies' personalities are

Coffee- I wrote robust/ strong which is what I interprete sex

Sea- I wrote calm which is my impression of life

c) The colours show the relationship I have with those persons

Yellow- Khairun, a person I will never forget

Orange- Sadiq, a person who is my true friend

Red- Mum, a person I truly love

White- Dad, my twin soul

Green- Arif, a person I remember for the rest of my life

Quite remarkably interpreted :)

Myra Abd Kadir~ at 14:00

Monday, November 20, 2006

Ten Tips for Achieving Financial Security

Since our family unit began in 1982, finances is the one and only thing my family is worried about. 7 people in the family, and occasionally 8, when my uncles stay around, we were pretty much short of cash everytime. Hence, its really interesting to read up on financial planning, to so called lift my family to another financial level. I found some financial planning information for those who are interested in financial security. I thought I can post this tips so that you guys can benefit too. I ripped it off from Investopedia, under Retirement. 10 Tips for Achieving Financial Security:

Start as Soon as You Can (saving, i mean)
Treat Your Savings as an Expense ( so you dont use savings as ur disposable income)
Save as Much as You Can in a Tax-Deferred Account
Diversify Your *Portfolio
Consider All Your Potential Expenses in Your Financial Plan
Budget
Periodically Reassess Your *Portfolio
Reassess Your Expenses and Make Changes Where Possible
Consider Your Spouse
Work with an Experienced Financial Planner

* For those who is unsure what portfolio means, its like a 'file' in where you detail all your investments; be it in stocks, bonds or mutual funds. People usually invest in more than one investments so as not to put all the eggs in one basket. You may choose to invest on your own or hire a portfolio manager.

All they are saying is to plan for the future. You should start and stick to your savings plan. Insurance is super important, at least for my family. I think when your pay check comes, try set aside these type of expediture aside: Savings, Expenses (hp bills/ rents/ transport/ food), Insurance, Miscellanous (birthday presents, gym membership) and most importantly disposable income. This is the portion where you can spend as you wish! Disposable income is my favourite chunk. Why? Cause this volume of this figure determines whether I can afford to travel :)

Happy planning

love,
mYra

Myra Abd Kadir~ at 17:33

Monday, November 06, 2006

It painful when...

i sit crying quietly in the park..

my dad took away my first 2 kittens, King and Kiki, away from me

my heart got stolen for the 1st time and never returned

the throbbing in my head never cease despite 4 tablets of painkillers

my advices are left ignored

i am alone, finding a way out of feeling despondent

i failed to perform well in exams.. i can remember 3 papers I screwed up back in Uni

my cries for help in form of calls and sms fell on death ears

someone i sms-ed fail to respond

some of my friends break their promises

the dentist took out 3 molars, leaving one wound bleeding profusely overnight

my gums get tender after braces and i cant chew Chilli Serbuk Ikan Bilis

i try to confide in someone who is the least sympathetic to my problems, dismiss my problems as trivial in his/ her quiet ways, and didnt sincerely try to help

i get knocked out after an interview for my dream job

i see my mum waking up so early in the morning to work, while the rest of the family sleeps soundly

i learn not to trust a man

i hear some friends talk bad bout me

i feel i am being patronised

i cant afford to provide a better living for mum & dad

my back ached like crazy on my travelling adventures

my job sucks but i am stuck with it

my siblings ate the last portion of dinner, leaving nothing for me

i fell sick but i hate to trouble anyone

i see people i love crying

God took someone's life before i can say goodbye

i get reprimanded for the mistakes i did in the most cruel way

its a Monday and i just had a terrible weekend

i had to turn down my friends' invitations cause i was too drained to have fun

i did a mistake when i knew it was going to happen

the guys teased me cause i am tall

my friends are too busy in their own lives to ask how i am

i cant be a good daughter, sister, friend and employee i wish i could be

i cant tell the difference between the people who really cares and those who dont

i cant get into the mind of others to see whats bothering them

i get overcharged

my hard disk crashed along with all the memorable photos and important resume compilations

my dreams of an exciting holiday gets sour

i feel all this pain inside, but i dont know how to make it go away

Myra Abd Kadir~ at 14:59

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Despondency which lingers

These days, I get hyper irritated by almost everything. A sign of depression? Perhaps, maybe a mild one. Frustration needs a vent, but I certainly am too trap with the banalities of daily life to let it out. I've taken a back seat, and still thats not enough. The feeling of inadequacy and helplessness painted almost all the corners of my mind. Perhaps I should speak to a Dr.

My mum told me I should let go of my weekend job so I can make way for social life. I ridiculed her suggestion by saying, thats another way of saving, "I want to see you married soon". I do not see any point in saving my weekends for social life when I do not have a social network in mind. I see weekends as a time I redeem myself for not having a job that is permanent and enjoyable. I have financial commitments I must fulfil and whoever have time to build a social network just to fill up a social life when you have abundant of things to pay for.

Yea, maybe I will be a perfect specimen for SDU to study.

The root of the problem, could be my present stint @ DHL. I doubt its working out as I had imagined. Another is the job opportunities which are available to me. I sense no guide for those helplessly seeking a career path. So much for OCS. I think the officers are superficial and certainly unhelpful in matters outside of resume editting. I have no confidence in applying for positions online and I certainly ran out of agencies which I trust to do a great job. Somehow I feel the only way in, into a good organization, is to know friends who cared enough about you. And for now, I have Lina, Kak Ipah, Tracy and Rafidah in mind. Things @ home, arent going smooth either.

Oh well...maybe it'll be better tomorrow..